Happy New Year

Happy New Year, Friends! Nathan’s blog has somehow turned into an annual update - our last update was right after Nathan’s 4th birthday and he will be turning 5 in just another month. Wow! The good news is that we have not had much bad news to write about it. So, what better way to start the New Year than to reflect on the blessings we have had through 2009.

Nathan had an entirely hospital-stay free year. Yippee. Nathan has remained stable in most every medical facet this year. He has also grown a lot. At 40 inches and 35 pounds, our everyday life keeps getting more challenging as he still does not help with any weight bearing or shifting. Nathan probably had a few mild & undiagnosed pneumonias in the past year, but nothing that made the radar screen. He was suspected of having the H1N1 virus, but he came thru it like a champ. And since the diagnosis was unconfirmed, we even took him to wait in line with the rest of Sacramento at a county clinic for the H1N1 vaccine (which is another story that I won’t even delve into). Despite a significant worsening of his bone density and a severe osteoporosis label, Nathan has not fractured any bones this year. And although we still carry an oxygen tank with us everywhere we go, he has rarely had to use it except when ill and while sleeping. I’m afraid to unbolt the tank from his wheelchair in case that jinxes us into needing it. His apnea has worsened, and the docs are considering removing his tonsils and adenoids to help his breathing. We will be doing some more tests to determine if this would be beneficial. Nathan’s hip dislocation progression has slowed down which means we are still holding off on any major hip operation. We will continue to re-assess every 6 months, however he is already sitting sideways crooked and one leg is longer now due to the amount of subluxation of his left hip.

Despite all the good health karma we have had this year, the one constant that hangs like a dark cloud over us is Nathan’s ever worsening seizure disorder. Nathan will experience a few good weeks on the seizure front (which means <20 seizures per day), but then he will have multiple bad weeks of up to 100 seizures per day. This seizure disorder (Lennox Gastaut) has a nasty reputation and seems to live up to its name in Nathan. All the functional gains Nathan makes seem to get wiped out when the seizures escalate. Our lives often feel like the movie “Groundhog Day” – the same thing over and over. Or one step forward and two steps back which is worse than Groundhog Day.

On the cognitive front, Nathan has been using an access switch placed next to his forehead for about 6 months now. This has been really cool to see progress. He uses this to activate adapted toys so that he can finally control (or play with) toys on his own. Unfortunately the selection of adapted toys for his functional level is not very diverse or exciting and is incredibly expensive.. He had initially started using his hands to push a hand switch, but he no longer has the strength to lift his hand, push a button, and release the button which are all crucial steps required to use a hand switch. Nathan also recently started using a communication device called the “Cheaptalk” for his school. I wish I could say this was working well, but it really is not yet. The device itself is not the most intuitive and every time you want to change what you are doing, it requires re-setting the mode and messages. We are trying to use it to help Nathan learn to make choices between two things or activities, but he still has a long way to go. We know that Nathan understands a lot more than his body allows him to convey so we just keep trekking along giving him the benefit of the doubt. For awhile Nathan was regularly responding to the phrase “I Love You” with a 3 syllable response that sounds like “I OOO UUU”. Unfortunately, this response is not as forthcoming now as either he is becoming an independent almost 5 year old or his vocalization skills are deteriorating from the seizures. I know it is the latter which breaks my heart every day. Nathan continues to absolutely love being read to, talked to, snuggled, and listening to all sorts of music (and especially his music therapist, Anne). He also enjoys walking around in his gait trainer even though he still needs a lot of support and assistance to make much traction.

We have finally made two gut wrenching decisions for Nathan’s course of seizure treatments. We plan to put him on a medication (Vigabatrin) that causes peripheral blindness. It has been offered to us for 3 years as a medication that holds the most hope for seizure improvement. But for 3 years we have declined it because Nathan’s limited vision is his peripheral vision. We have finally reached that desperation stage. Nathan will start this medication tomorrow when it arrives in the mail thru the FDA controlled pharmacy. The 2nd decision is that he will be going through surgery in a couple weeks to implant a Vagus Nerve Stimulator (VNS). This is a device that is implanted under the skin which delivers electrical stimulation bursts to the brain via the vagus nerve every few minutes – similar to a pacemaker for the brain. We have delayed on this option for a few years also as the neurologists can only predict a best case seizure improvement of 20-30% and it requires a surgery with all the standard surgery / anesthesia risks. Again – I can only say that we have reached that point where we feel that any upside is better than where we are at, even weighing the heavy costs.

The other good news for the year is that we are no longer battling with the school district (that is at least until next school year). We finally hired a professional advocate after fighting an uphill battle on our own for a year and a half. I think a combination of our advocate, the districts’ past blatant disregard for upholding the special education laws for Nathan, and a turnover in administration/staff enabled us to create an improved IEP (Individual Education Plan). There are many other options that we would like for Nathan, but for now we are pleased that the district finally provided assessments whose results semi-accurately reflect his abilities. Based on these results, we now have him on a “Home Hospital” program where his teacher, speech, occupational, and physical therapist all come to our home to work with him. Although it is sad that he no longer gets the benefit of the social interaction at school, he is much more alert during his education sessions and is getting so much more out of it. It is personally tough having so many people parade through our home every day of the week, but the benefits for Nathan are worth it.

Throughout everything, Nathan maintains the most easy going and sweet disposition. He is so accepting of new people in his lives – therapists, teachers, doctors, nurses, etc. and rarely complains except when he is ill. I wish I could say the same about myself (LOL). Madison and Zachary are both adjusting well too. Zachary has finally transitioned into a “big” brother role with Nathan where he is becoming protective and helpful. He loves to run wild with Nathan's wheelchair and we always have to keep an eye on what danger sport Zachary may enlist Nathan in when he is on wheels. Perhaps one day Zachary will run marathons with Nathan in tow. Madison is still extremely nurturing and supportive of Nathan. She is always cheering him on and will hang out with him for hours trying to entertain, make him smile, or help him play with a toy. She is convinced that she wants to grow up to become a "special needs teacher".

Our lives continue to be an amazing journey with Nathan for all the challenges and all the rewards. Thank you all for being part of that journey and for your thoughts, prayers, and cheers along the way. We will try to update after Nathan's surgery.

Birthday Reflections

As usual, it has been a very long time since our last blog entry. Things have been busy in the McCue home - juggling the 3 kids, jobs, and all the extra-curricular activities. We'll try to catch everyone up on the highlights of the last 6 months in this entry.

The last two weeks have hosted 2 birthdays in the family. First, Madison turned 8 last week and celebrated with a "Rock Star Slumber Party" with friends. It was the first sleepover party for Madison as well as Mom and Dad, so there was some concern (fear) heading into the party. But, the girls were too busy with the new karaoke machine, Twister game, and High School Musical 3 DVD to be too much trouble. They outlasted the parents well into the night, but a good time was had by all.

Yesterday, we had a family celebration for Madison and Nathan. Nathan's 4th birthday is today. We had a nice day with Uncle John, Aunt Kelley, cousin Jennifer, Grandma, and Pop at the house. Nathan took a brief snooze during the gathering, but was awake to open/receive many new CDs to enjoy for a long time to come. Nathan's favorite activity continues to be music so he really enjoys receiving a variety.

It is hard to believe that we are celebrating his fourth birthday when many of his first doctors did not expect him to celebrate even one. Apparently, those doctors were not considering Nathan's will and wonderful support group which includes family, friends, therapists, and even people who hardly know him. We are so grateful for all of the help, thoughts, and prayers that have helped our family get to this point.

So, getting to Nathan, it has been a LONG time since we have posted any news about his health or status. He has set an amazing record by staying out of the hospital for 8 months. I have to be careful not to jinx anything (my track record of posting good news in the blog is not very good), but this has been a good run. He has had a few upper respiratory infections and other unexplained illnesses during this time, but we are usually prepared for those and they were not too serious. Unfortunately, he did spend his Christmas break sick and is now fighting some bug that makes it tough for him to really enjoy his birthday.

We still have not had success controlling his seizures and the frequency of the seizures continue to wreak havoc on his strength development and retention. He has had a few really scary seizures that make us stop and wonder what may happen next. We don't have any promise of new or different treatments, but there is a new seizure med on the market that is targeted for his type of seizure disorder. His neurologist does not hold out much hope that this would work, but it something we may try. The most recent visit to Shriner's Hospital determined that his left hip continues to sublux and is likely to be completely dislocated within a year. There is a strong likelihood that the right hip would be next to go, too. Additionally, his bone density is still a concern. They are fairly brittle and the lack of weight-bearing on his legs keeps the bones from strengthening despite efforts to build strength with his stander and gait trainer. We will keep working him on this equipment, of course, in the hopes that he can improve his weight-bearing to supplement all the calcium supplements he gets daily. The one upshot of the hip issues is that Nathan's low muscle tone seems to have kept him from experiencing pain from the dislocation (at least, as far as he has expressed to us). We are also very excited that Nathan is now using a gait trainer and absolutely loves it. He is not exactly walking in it, but he does lift his legs as if he is trying to take steps independently. Very Cool!

The other major bummer of late has been our seemingly futile effort with the school district. It is too complex to explain it all in this blog, but we continue to spend a lot of our energy just trying to get Nathan the bare minimum services and to hang on to his private nursing. We may end up not having him in school, which is too bad because he does really enjoy it. I was hoping that the school district would employ the trained professionals that could help us develop his speech & communication skills, among other things. But it was clear to us in our last annual review that the school specialists that have been working with him for one year, do not even understand his current abilities to communicate, recognize cause and effect, and his love for using his vision to look at books. The cool thing is that we do know that Nathan has these talents and is really trying to communicate with back and forth vocalizations, using switches, and expressing his likes / dislikes. It may be up to us to develop the rest over time.

Well, that's it for now. Nathan's birthday is usually a time of reflection for us - for the blessings we have with him, for his wonderful network of supporters, for his health (both good and bad), and for his developmental milestones (also both good and bad). Thank you all for being part of it.

Much Love, The McCues

What's Up With Nathan

This entry is all about Nathan. Many of you have inquired so I figured I would just write a complete Nathan blog update to catch everyone up on his life.

I’ll start with health. Nathan has had a fairly healthy summer with just three or four URI’s. The early summer fire season in California this year was rough on his respiratory system. The very smoky air caused him to spend more time on his home oxygen, but we’ve learned to keep him indoors when the wind blows. He started pre-school a few weeks ago and came home from his 3rd day with a 104.5 fever. Usually this is very bad news (read pneumonia). The doc diagnosed him with a sinus infection. I don’t know if I completely agree, but he was fighting some infection and his course of antibiotics seemed to take care of things. He stayed home for a few days and returned to school ready to learn. Aside from a runny nose and occasional fever since, he has been doing well.

Next – his seizures. This felt like a losing battle until about 2 weeks ago. All summer he had good days and bad days, but a lot more bad than good. He went back to greater than 50 seizures on a typical day, including adding a few new types of seizures to his repertoire, consistent with his syndrome’s prognosis. Nathan’s ketosis state has only returned in the last two weeks, so it is too soon to tell if it will stick yet. It took many months to get to ketosis when he first began the ketogenic diet, and then it took several more months to reap the seizure benefit. Bottom line – this is a never ending game of watching and waiting. He did have a great low-seizure week when we went to Huntington Beach and Disneyland. We’re not sure if it was the weather, the fun, or something unrelated, but we may have to move to Huntington Beach someday. About 2 weeks ago, his seizures did a major turnaround – perhaps related to his ketosis state. We are only seeing about 3-5 grand mal seizures each day along with a handful of absence seizures. I try not to jinx it by talking about it too much. And we really don’t know what has triggered the change or if it will last. It could be that he is in ketosis, better respiratory health (for him), the new mulit-vitamin he started (hooray for bugs bunny sugar free vitamins), stopping his allegra allergy med, or something else. What we do know is that we will definitely cherish every day and moment that he is seizure free (or anything less than 20 per day).

Now the bad news – his bones. Nathan was diagnosed with osteopenia after an x-ray of the lower GI system for an unrelated issue in June. The endocrinologist ordered a dexa scan even though they are not calibrated for children under 6. The dexa scan diagnosed osteoperosis which basically means he will easily break his bones. This is not what we want to hear, especially since Nathan has such a hard time expressing pain. As we learned when he broke his shoulder, he will not let us know specifically where the pain is, nor when it starts or stops. The treatment options consist of increasing his calcium & vitamin D intake as well as other meds or IV therapy. We will start the increased calcium/vitamin D this week after we receive the expensive “no sugar/carbs” version via mail order. We will wait to consider the other treatments. We have also now seen a few surgeons for his subluxed hips. The prevailing recommendation (1st, 2nd, and 3rd opinions) is to have a femur osteotomy which is the MAJOR surgery I mentioned a few blogs ago. It is such a tough decision, but we have temporarily decided to NOT put Nathan through such a rough surgery and 10+ week recovery in full body spica cast. One of the surgeons asked me if I could live with my decision if he did not make it through the surgery or recovery. That pretty much sealed the deal. She also said she was not sure she could live with herself if he did not make it through the surgery. Sorry, Doc – but your record and feelings are not my concern, although I get your point. We had new x-rays taken last week which showed that there has not been any worsening of the hips in the last 3 months. This is positive. Our overall goal for Nathan is pain avoidance and thus far, we don’t think has pain. We did spend 4 hours last Thursday getting x-rays and visiting doctors because we feared that he had broken another bone. He was (and still is) in pain from something that is intensified when he is “transferred” or lowered into his bathing chair. It is probably just a strained muscle as the x-rays showed nothing wrong, but something else to worry about.



The exciting updates - Nathan’s education / cognitive development. Nathan’s classroom got a new teacher this year that seems wonderful. She treats the children and parents with respect and has a curriculum geared towards the children’s cognitive and physical level. Wow! Nathan seems very energetic and engaged at school and still loves to ride the bus. He continues to say “ma-ma” and will occasionally grunt “yea” when you ask him if he wants something. Last week, his music therapist swears he said “arm” as she was engaging his arms in the music curriculum. This is all exciting stuff. When you walk away from him, he hollers out (he is showing a bit of his toddler side, now). And the other night during dinner, both Madison and Zachary were making funny noises and misbehaving. As Jim and I were trying to settle the other two, Nathan joined into the noise making session. I know all of this probably does not sound so exciting to many of you, but to Nathan and us – it is HUGE to see the cognitive side shine through the body that does not cooperate. The downside of his education is that the school wants to take away his home nursing. It is too hard to explain how/why in a couple sentences, but it is very possible that we could lose our home nursing if we continue to send him to school. So, unfortunately, if it comes down to school or nursing, we will have to pick nursing and keep him home. Wish us luck as we pursue what is likely to be a long battle…

And while we are on the topic of nurses, our Friday and occasional respite nurse took a new job somewhere else. She will still work occasionally, but we do not have any nursing on Fridays or on “predictable” evenings right now. Nathan is very attached to her and we miss her greatly, even though the new job is better for her. It has not impacted our lives yet since I have been off from work this summer, but it will be a big deal when I return to work next week. We did train a new nurse this past Friday, so we are crossing our fingers that she works out (we’ve trained some before only to have them never return).

Well, that is Nathan’s update in a nutshell. Hope this update finds you all well. Thank you for reading and caring/cheering for Nathan.

Just Monkeying Around

After returning from our Indiana trip, we decided to embark on a project to provide a play structure for the kids in our side yard. Research into available products showed that plenty of monstrocities that include castles, forts, and climbing walls are available to take up an entire yard. It also showed that the cost of buying a simple monkey bar/swing combo is not practical.

So, Jim drew up a sketch/plan to build a play structure and consulted with Pop. After some minor tweaks to the design and despite the lingering doubts from Tricia that the pair could build a structure that would hold up without getting hurt or breaking the structure in disgust, it was "go time." The July 4 weekend was the proposed building time.

Saturday morning involved buying lumber, pipe (for the monkey bars), hardware, and an assortment of "swingset supplies." Then, the hard work started. The bars were assembled on Saturday and most cuts were made in preparation for assembly on Sunday. The second day saw the project come together. And, with some help from friends and neighbors with heavy lifting/holding, the play structure was completed on Sunday evening.

Big thanks go out to Pop (Jim's dad) for his help in the design and construction and for providing the tools (and some of the liquid refreshments) for the project. The kids love the play structure (Zach might warm up to swinging soon) and Madison and Nathan have enjoyed the swings immensely. We have even had friends over and the structure is holding up fine for now.

Planes, Trains, & Automobiles (or Wheelchairs)

Nathan has had a lot of excitement since May. He finally recovered from his last pneumonia and broken shoulder, although he has still not gotten back into ketosis for seizure control. He started summer school for a few weeks, and then we went to Indiana to see the Axsom family. Of course, it was quite an adventure, as everything in Nathan’s life usually is.

We chose to fly Frontier airlines to Indiana since they had the lowest fares and what we thought were the best flight times. For future reference, Zachary does not like red-eye flights. But, Nathan thoroughly enjoyed the airplane ride and especially liked the personal tv screen in front of him which flashed constant advertisements. He cooed most of the ride. But, what we expected to be the end of our rough night en route with 3 kids, ended up being just the beginning.

The airline busted Nathan’s wheelchair. Nathan’s wheelchair is more than a chair – it is his livelihood. The chair helps him to sit upright and hold his head up – two things he cannot do on his own and both critical for his health and safety, not to mention comfort. It is also his transportation. We knew that flying with his chair was a risk, but we had done it once before and really had no other choice. The most surprising part was Frontier’s complete disregard for the damage they did to his chair including an attempt to “cover-up” the damage. The story gets even more disheartening as the Frontier manager in charge at Indianapolis shrugged us off – telling us to leave our info with an associate because she had many other customers that she had to attend to. The best response we could get was that we had to leave the chair at Indianapolis and they would call us when they weren’t so busy. Yet there was no commitment to fix it, pay for fixing it, or acceptance of accountability for the chair. They also broke the handles off of Zachary’s stroller and told us that stroller damage would not be covered. It is now 4 weeks later and we still do not have it resolved with Frontier although we did get it “functionally” repaired the week after we returned.

I won’t bore you with the details of our next several days of logistics, other than to give a positive plug for an amazing rehab equipment company in Ft. Wayne, IN. Hamilton HAS went above and beyond in customizing a “demo” wheelchair (Kidcart) for Nathan’s use for the week. They did all this for a nominal labor fee since we did not know if Frontier was going to cover our costs. Midwestern hospitality was at its finest with these genuine people who really cared about the child and not the money. The chair was not ideal for Nathan’s needs, but it was an acceptable stand in – and certainly better than we expected given our situation.

Unfortunately, the next day Nathan’s feeding pump malfunctioned. This is his life support. He cannot eat through his feeding tube without a feeding pump and therefore this problem is classified as an emergency (at least in my book). It is too bad that Apria employees in the Midwest do not have that same Midwestern hospitality as the wheelchair company. They give the same shoddy customer service they give in California. Again, I won’t bore you with the details - after 10 hours of phone calls we did finally get a replacement pump (with a bad battery back-up). We chalk this up to more of Nathan’s (and my) daily trials and tribulations.

So, on with our vacation (vacation, yeah right). We did manage to have a nice time visiting friends and family. It thunder stormed just about everyday that we were there, so some of our plans did not pan out. But we did get to spend a lot of time with my sister (Auntie Glo), brother-in-law, and parents which was the real purpose of the trip anyway. The kids all enjoyed real Midwestern thunderstorms (and lawn mowers). We visited a very cool science museum one day and enjoyed a few down home “cook-outs”. Nathan stayed healthy which was our biggest wish, even though he missed his creature comforts of home and his nurses. The trip ended successfully with an uneventful return flight and with Nathan ecstatic to see Sandy, his nurse, again. He cooed for hours once reunited.

Well, since it has taken me so long to write this update, I will wait to post an entry with the highlights of our July trip to Disneyland & the beach at a later time. Oh, and if you have not already, check out Jim's entry below about his whirlwind getaway with brother-in-law Kevin during our Indiana visit.

Love, the McCues

Fighting Irish and Betting Indians

During our trip to Fort Wayne, I (Jim) had a chance to get away for about 24 hours with brother-in-law, Kevin. On Friday afternoon, we headed northwest from Fort Wayne to South Bend where Kevin’s mother, Midge, provided a rapid-fire tour of the Notre Dame campus. Her “hang tag” helped with parking and access into a couple of administrative buildings and her knowledge of the “lay of the land” allowed for us to see lots of things in a short amount of time.

We started in the football building where my appointment with Irish head coach Charlie Weis was not found by the receptionist (the communication for the meeting was as successful as the 2007 Notre Dame offense), but we saw his patio and then went on to the larger facilities that house the National Championship trophy, Tim Brown’s Heisman Trophy, and an enormous weight room for the players.
From there, we hit the Joyce Center which houses the Irish hockey team’s home ice as well as the basketball arena. Inside the facility is also the Notre Dame Sports Hall of Honor, which houses past uniforms, awards, photos, and plenty of other memorabilia from the glory days. It was pretty awesome to see sections honoring Knute Rockne, Heisman Trophy winners, national championship coaches and teams, and even some honored athletes from other sports programs at Notre Dame.

Sports turned to art as the tour took us to the main administration building which sports the legendary “Golden Dome.” The interior is amazing with murals and a stunning rotunda. All of the art and history housed in a building that makes the university go on a daily basis seems strange when one thinks of all of the technology to keep a school running in the 21st Century.

The next stop was the basilica, an amazing church that reminded me of the basilicas in Europe. From the large central portal where mass is held to the big pipe organ and ornate pews, the basilica was an intimidating building that seems to humble visitors who enter. Sticking with the religious theme, we then walked over to the Grotto. A very spiritual setting, the Grotto is like a half-cave that houses rows and rows of candles that are lit in prayer or memory of loved ones, friends, and others. It was a powerful experience walking by the candles and taking in the atmosphere with cards and pictures of loved ones left by people after lighting their candles.

After that experience, the stadium and bookstore harkened a shift from the Catholic Church to the Church of Football and Merchandising. Shirts were bought in hopes that the atrocity of the 2007 season is an aberration as everyone is now unbeaten again. The final stop outside the stadium was along the grass leading to the Hesburgh Library building that hosts “Touchdown Jesus” on its side – a Notre Dame icon almost as well-known as Rockne.
In all, the 2 hours on campus were awesome, especially considering that we covered so much ground and just about all of the important landmarks at Notre Dame. Having spent four years at a much newer university (Pepperdine’s Malibu campus opened for student enrollment in 1972 whereas Notre Dame was established in South Bend in 1842), the architecture and ambience were an obvious throwback to a different time and a very different collegial atmosphere.

The tour concluded, we headed back to Midge’s apartment to prepare for the next phase of our adventure – the Four Winds Casino Resort. The first stop was at the home of Kevin’s brother, Wayne, just a short drive away near South Bend in Granger where cold beers awaited before changing cars and hitting the road again (Kevin and I had the beers and Wayne drove). Our road trip took us north into Michigan and then west along the Michigan border to New Buffalo on the shore of Lake Michigan. We ventured down a road to view million dollar homes on the lake that look out toward Chicago (if the weather was better, we might have been able to look across the lake to see the Sears Tower and downtown Chicago) and the million dollar views of the lake.

As it was, we concluded our trip into the neighborhood and headed to the casino. The Four Winds Casino Resort is a luxurious casino and hotel opened in August 2007 by the Pokagon Band of Potawatomi Indians (http://www.fourwindscasino.com/). Nestled in the woods of New Buffalo, it boasts a large gaming floor (it would be the third largest gaming room in Las Vegas) and a great atmosphere. I hit the Pai Gow table and spent about $20 for a few hours of entertainment. We also feasted at the Copper Rock restaurant (try the prime rib, it’s delicious) before heading back to Granger to finally end the day’s travel.

On Saturday, after a hearty breakfast, we concluded our South Bend get-away with a trip to the National College Football Hall of Fame. Packed with memorabilia, displays, and interactive exhibits, the HOF captures the history of the college game and the legends that played it. The evolution of equipment, uniforms, players, coaches, and the way people enjoy them is displayed in great detail and in a manner that is easy for the casual to die-hard fan to enjoy. My only complaint is that the HOF had no display or mention of George Pepperdine College’s 38-13 victory over Nebraska-Wesleyan in the First Annual Will Rogers Bowl Classic in Oklahoma City or of the school’s undefeated 1947 season.

Home Again

Nathan got to come home from the hospital this evening. Yippee! He is doing fairly well and we are really excited to be home. Juggling the other kids, work, sleep, meals, and the rest of life is just so difficult when Nathan is in the hospital.

After a few more tests, we determined that Nathan does not need surgery, now. We will keep an eye on the hernia and hope that it does not get worse. It is not predicted to get better, but it may or may not get worse. The big downside of this type of hernia for Nathan is potential for increased reflux. And for Nathan, that means increased risk of aspiration, more pnuemonias, more discomfort, etc. But the other tests show no significant risks at this time which is better than the downside of the surgery options.

The infection (whatever it was) seems to be mostly gone. His fever has been gone for more than 24 hours and he has not required supplemental oxygen all day. His spirits are back up and he is chatting loudly in his own bed as I type. I believe he is out of the woods with this illness, although it feels like we've all lost another 2 weeks of our lives. Somehow we made it to Madison's first performance in a school play last night (thanks to Nathan's wonderful nurses who stayed with Nathan and babysat Zachary).

We did have a couple problems during this hospital stay. The first was a medication snafu. It is our first issue at this hospital which is very dissapointing. By last night, I had gotten too comfortable in the staff to do things right for Nathan that I did not give each nurse the full line up of questions before every med was administered (which I usually do). Yesterday, the docs took Nathan off his IV meds and switched to oral meds which we dispense thru his feeding tube. Since Nathan is on the "no carb" ketogenic diet for seizure control, the medicines that he receives cannot have any carbs (sugars, etc.). We were so careful to be sure that the barium in the barium swallow test and everything else dispensed to him through the week was carb free. But somehow the oral meds they swithched him to last night contained sugar without our knowledge. Nathan's seizures were sooo bad today. After his 3rd dosage of one of his meds today, I accidently pulled his feeding tube loose and the meds spilled on me. My first thought was concern that he would miss that dose. But my 2nd thought was - hey, that smells & feels like sticky sweet medicine. So, I questioned the nurses, pharmacist, & doctors only to find out that they all made a mistake. Ok, so this was not a life threatening mistake. But it is a huge mistake to make for a patient who is getting some or total seizure control on the keto diet. This is the one hospital in the Sacramento area that actively prescribes & monitors this diet. For Nathan, we don't know how out of balance this will send him or for how long. He's only recently started getting the benefits of a ketotic state, so we don't know how hard it will be to get him back. Lesson learned for our next visit never let my guard down, even for a sleep deprived second.

The 2nd problem that happened was that his broken shoulder worsened. He had been pain free for about one week when he went to the hospital, but he is now in pain again. The painful crying first occured when a nurse was changing his nightgown and was moving the right arm. I thought she might have injured it accidently, so I had the hospital re-xray it to see if had fractured again. It turns out that the fracture has not changed at all on xray. This means that the fracture had not recovered as it should have after 2 weeks. Why the pain suddenly came back is inexplicable, but he sees the othepedist on Monday so we will hopefully understand more then.

On the upside, our excitement for the day was meeting Celebrity Tyler Hilton. I did not know that at the time, but he came into Nathan's hospital room and sang/played the guitar. I thought he was a volunteer musician/therapist making the rounds to cheer up patients, but after he came in and started singing, a crew came in behind him with cameras and releases to use Nathan's pics for PR purposes. If you don't know who I am talking about - he is on the show "One Tree Hill" and he also played Elvis on Walk The Line. It's sad to say that I'm either too old or too out of mainstream culture to have a clue who he is. His music is very good, so maybe someday Nathan can say he knows a superstar. Nathan got an autographed picture as well, which we will hang on to just in case.

Thank you all for your prayers and phone calls and emails. We couldn't make it through all the ups and downs without you in our lives. Nathan has a wonderful cheering team that makes his spirit stronger.

Until we write again....

Mystery Diagnosis Part II

Well, the plot thickens. We have some answers, but also more questions. Nathan does have a hiatal hernia. And for those of you (like me) that wonder exactly what that is, I've copied the definition from webmd - "A hernia occurs when one part of the body protrudes through a gap or opening into another part. A hiatal hernia forms at the opening in your diaphragm where your food pipe (esophagus) joins your stomach. Part of the stomach pushes through this opening causing a hiatal hernia".

Cause unknown. Impact unknown. Next steps - unknown. Reason for fever & high white blood count - still unknown.

As we have learned thru our hospital stays, there is often lots of talk about many different courses of action before there is ever a true recommendation. For those that are weak of heart, it is a tough road. Luckily, my typical worrisome self has somewhat mellowed thru the last 3 years. I kind of just wait until the doctors get to their own recommendations - bringing in all the various experts and then balance that against our family wishes. Nathan has been 'threatened' with many surgeries thru the last 2 years. For this hernia, one doc thinks he needs surgery and another doc thinks he does not. Typically, surgery would not be done for this type of hernia, but opinions change when an immobile child with feeding tube and cerebal palsy is the patient. So, we will wait this one out to see where it leads us.

In the meantime, the family is hanging in there. Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes. It means a lot to Nathan and the family.

Mystery Diagnosis

Dear Friends,
Sometimes I feel like our (or Nathan's) life should be captured on a "Mystery Diagnosis" series. Nathan is back in the hospital, this time with another unknown problem.

To catch everyone up, Nathan's pneomonia worsened last week. Last Friday we were sent to the hospital by the pediatrician, but then sent back home with different medications by the pulmonary doctor. On Monday, we had a checkup with the pulmonologist who agreed with our assessment that Nathan was recovering as expected. But on Tuesday afternoon, things took another turn for the worse. His fever spiked sky high again along with a lot of other symptoms. Tuesday night was rough. Then, yesterday morning we took him back to the pulmonologist. He sent us all over town for blood tests, stool samples, and chest x-rays. After 4 hours of testing and running around, we went back to the doctor to review the results. According to his chest x-ray, it appeared that Nathan's stomach was in his chest wall on top of his left lung so he sent us straight to the hospital.

Now, another 15 hours later, we are in the ICU at Sutter Memorial hospital (our home away from home). All of his tests thus far have stumped the docs. His body shows lots of signs of infection, but no more evidence of pneumonia. A GI doc will be performing a barium swallow study on him in a few hours to verify or rule out a hiatal hernia (which is the most probable theory they have right now). The hernia should not cause fever/infection, so perhaps he has something else going on, too. A surgeon is also coming in for a consultation this morning which I guess suggests they think surgery will be on his agenda one way or another.

Anyway - please say a little prayer for Nathan for a speedy recovery (and a not so bad diagnosis).

I just discovered wireless in the hospital so as we know more I will post updates.

Love, the McCues

Get Well Wishes

Well, as I mentioned in last week's udpate, Nathan's good news is usually hampered with some not so good stuff. Somehow we seem to jinx ourselves when we share the good news. Nathan broke his shoulder last week. I wish we could say that we know how, but we really don't know. It could be from routine physical therapy, contractures, or even a seizure. The break is in a strange place for a typical movement, but it is what it is and now he must recover from it. He first started letting us know he had some discomfort on Wednesday, and by Friday he was yelling/crying every time we moved him. So, another visit to xray lab & ER confirmed the reason. He had a painful weekend, but seems much better with the pain today. They don't cast for this type of break, so he is wearing a sling and is not supposed to move his arm for several weeks.

Unfortunately he also has pneumonia now (I never should have bragged about just 1 pneunmonia). This one is not confirmed, but he has all the symptoms (fever, oxygen desaturation, lethargy, junky sounding lungs, etc.). With the broken shoulder, we don't want to put him thru the pain of chest x-rays just to get it confirmed. So, for now, he is being treated at home with a strong antibiotic & round the clock nebulizer treatments.

The poor guy. He endures so much, yet stays so sweet. Please pray for a speedy recovery and no hospitalization this time around. Thank you all for keeping him in your thoughts.

Love, the McCues

Spring News

Dear Friends,

As usual, time keeps flying and we don’t get around to posting updates as often as we’d like – but we think of all or our friends/family often and thank you for keeping Nathan in your thoughts. For those of you that missed it, Jim did take some time last month to post a birthday update on Nathan, so check out his posting below.

Nathan has even bigger news this month. He started pre-school last week. It’s hard to believe that the day came for him to go off to school. We never imagined this when he was born and even as we’ve learned that Nathan’s life prognosis would be much longer than originally predicted, we still did not imagine him at school. So far, the school has exceeded our expectations, but our expectations were rock bottom, so don’t get too excited yet. They have a long way to go to meet Nathan’s and his classmate’s educational needs/goals, but it is a start. It is also a very bad time with the California (and thus education) budget crisis. The district faced with 3 pre-school aged children that are orthepedically impaired (OI), as well as medically fragile & cognitively delayed, realized (or were forced) to provide something more suitable than a “behaviorally” challenged special day class with kids that are walking, talking, and throwing chairs (yes, I did say throwing chairs). So, they created an OI class for the 3 boys. There are pros and cons of this and I won’t bore you with the details. But I will tell you that Nathan absolutely loves riding a bus to school – he smiles and coos and looks out the window while bumping along in the back of the bus.

He has participated in just about everything the curriculum has provided thus far including the computer (with an adaptive switch in place of a mouse), banging a big drum, and taking “appropriate” turns vocalizing with the speech therapist. They still don’t have an appropriate chair for him to sit in or other equipment that was promised. The teacher is still afraid of touching him and is openly dissatisfied with her first year teaching job in special ed with these OI kiddos. But the classroom aides and other therapists (vision, speech, occupational) all seem great with him thus far. Our hope is that the district will find a teacher with a passion & qualifications for this job & will continue growing this OI program in Folsom. I personally have really enjoyed my 4 days that I’ve spent in the classroom and think it would be great to go into this field myself. Maybe, someday. But back to Nathan - I look for a whole new world to open up to him now that he is not just isolated with the family, home therapists & his nurse. He seems to be thriving in his new environment (except for the cold that he has developed). Exciting times... Stay tuned.

Independent of school, Nathan has now said 3 real words. He said "Ma-Ma" to me the night I returned home from a 2 week business trip to Malaysia. He has continued to say "mama", although somewhat sparingly. He has also said "Anne" to his music therapist named Anne and "Hi" during a music therapy session when he was cued to say "hello". We keep working with him in hopes that he will continue using those words and pick up some new words along the way.

We are also happy to report that we have entered the spring season with only 2 winter pneomonias this year, requiring only one hospitalization. Progress!

Now for the bad news. Unfortunately, Nathan’s good news is usually watered down with some bad news. We are being told that he needs major orthopedic surgery to correct his hip joints which are subluxated. They have been progressing at a fast pace, so the docs think he needs this surgery asap to keep them from dislocating and causing significant pain. We will be going for second opinions and surgeon consults soon to help us make this heartwrenching decision. The surgery recovery alone is about 8-12 weeks in a spica (full body) cast. And the surgery is not a guarantee that his hips won’t go on to dislocate anyway.

Nathan’s seizures are still bad and inconsistent. We went thru a few months where his seizures were better than average. Which means he was having about 50-60 seizures per day versus 100 per day. For some unknown reason, he then took a downturn and the seizures got worse. Not only was he having more, but they were wiping him out more. Many times he’d just fall asleep right after one and need 30 minutes or so just to recover. His reflux worsened and he just didn’t seem happy much of the time. I can’t blame him. We made a few changes – added an allergy med & changed his reflux med at about the same time. We are seeing some improvement now in both the seizures and reflux, but can’t conclude that it is due to the meds. We have also decided to try a seizure med that is not FDA approved – clobazam. We just ordered our 1st 3 month’s supply from Canada. It is not cheap and, of course, insurance will not pay for a non-FDA approved drug. If it provides some seizure relief for him, we will stick with it and look for some alternative funding sources (clinical trials, manufacturer, etc..). If it does not work, we will chalk it up to another failed medicine and move on.

Other family side notes – Zachary had tubes put in his ears last month. It has already made a tremendous difference. No ear infection for the last month, sleeping better, and starting to talk more. Madison is growing up fast – asking how to text message, drive a car, and wondering when she will have her first boyfriend. She continues to be Nathan’s biggest cheerleader and best friend (or BFF). She reads to him and plays with him daily despite not getting much feedback from Nathan. It is so heartwarming to watch. She really has a special place in her heart for the “special” people in this world. If only her and Zach could get along as well.

I’m going on my sabbatical from Intel this summer which means I will be off from work for most of the summer. Lots of house & kid projects await. So does some restful sleep which has been rare lately. We are tentatively planning an excursion to Indiana to visit my family once we work thru the logistics of Nathan on an airplane (wheelchair, oxygen, equipment galore, etc.). We are also talking of a family roadtrip to southern CA again with our family friends. I should have more time to write this summer to share Nathan’s on-going adventures.

Birthday Boy!

This past weekend, we celebrated Nathan's third birthday. It's hard to believe that it has been three years since he joined us, but the journey has happened quickly. We celebrated quietly on Saturday (his actual birthday) with just the five of us at home and a few phone calls and gifts from out-of-town family. Then, Sunday, Jim's family came to the house for a celebration with food, drinks, cake, and presents.




Many thanks to everyone who was nice enough to celebrate Nathan's big day, whether it was by sending a card or gift, making a call, or even just thinking about or praying for him.




Now that he is 3, he will transition from Early Intervention to the school district for services (therapies, equipment, etc.). He is not actually scheduled to start going to school (he is set to attend a Special Ed class at Theodore Judah Elementary School in Folsom) until April 15 when the flu/RSV season is officially over. We don't know for sure how things will go, but we hope for the best. We had our Individual Education Plan (IEP) meeting with about 15-20 people crowded into a classroom on kid's chairs around a low classroom table to discuss how the school district would safely administer physical and educational/therapy services to Nathan. Aside from the district's inability to recognize the educational research supporting music therapy, the meeting went quite well and we left with some hope that the transition will be smooth.


Nathan continues to face his challenges and now has the aid of oxygen at night. It usually is set at a minimal rate, but enough to keep his oxygen saturation at an acceptable level. His seizures continue despite all of the medications and the ketogenic diet, but some days are better than others and we all soldier on with hopes that someday they will be managed.


He has been very chatty over the last month, cooing and babbling at length when he is feeling well. Nathan even says "Ma-ma" sometimes when prompted. It took a year of practice, but it was pretty clear. Now, I need to wait a year for ample time to teach him to say "Da-da."

In other family news (it's been 5 months since we posted anything on this blog), Zachary continues to grow his body and vocabulary. He is a handful with a bad habit of getting ear infections, but a joy to watch get bigger. Madison is enjoying the first grade and just celebrated her 7th birthday in February. She had a roller skating party with 11 girls (not recommended for adults hosting parties). The party was a hit, Madison had a great time, and Nathan even made the rounds at the roller skating rink in his wheelchair.

Right after Madison's birthday party, Tricia made a business trip to Malaysia for 10 days, leaving me home with the kids on my own (with lots of nursing help to keep me sane). All parties survived, but Tricia has been grounded, except for family trips until further notice.




All in all, it has been a very busy 5 months since our last posting: Jim's 20-year high school reunion; Halloween; Thanksgiving; Christmas; New Year's; and a 3-night stay at the hospital with Nathan's lone 2007-08 winter pneumonia (fingers crossed).


Thanks as always to everyone for your interest in Nathan and our family and for your support and thoughts as we move into Nathan's fourth year and next challenges.

Fall Update

It’s been a while since we have posted any news, but not for lack of news, just a lack of time. The tail end of summer was filled with travel, celebrations, construction, new beginnings, and daily challenges for Nathan.

First, the fun stuff. August was full of family celebrations – 7 family birthdays and an anniversary – so the social calendar was full (at least relative to what we normally get out and do). Tricia, Madison, and Zachary took a trip to Indiana for a visit with Tricia’s family and her 20th high school reunion. It was hot and humid and Tricia discovered Zach’s displeasure with travel and staying in new places. He is apparently a California boy and was not much for the sticky heat, but all survived and even had some fun adventures with tractors, museums, and rummaging through Grandma and Granddad’s cupboards. He and Madison both had a great time playing with Aunt Gloria, who is a kid at heart. Jim and Nathan had a great time bonding and enjoying the quiet home while they were away.

After they returned home, Jim had to readjust his sleep patterns from peaceful bliss to night-time disturbances courtesy of Zach. Zach enjoyed his 1st birthday celebration with swimming, BBQ, and lots of toys and clothes for the big 1-year-old. Tricia and Jim also celebrated their birthdays and 11th wedding anniversary with a rare dinner out without kids.


The middle of August marked Madison’s start of first grade at the neighborhood elementary school. She loves school and her teacher, Mrs. Reddington. She seems to be doing well and enjoys walking to school in the morning with Mom to start the day. Madison also got her first taste of cheerleading as part of a fundraiser for the Folsom High School cheerleaders. She and a bunch of other elementary girls got to perform at halftime of the freshmen football game. She loved cheering and was convinced that the girls’ routine was responsible for the team’s victory that evening.

Zachary recently graduated from the baby room to the toddler room at his day care. He loves playing “ball” with the big kids and is enjoying going outside in the sandbox and on slides (a perk of being a toddler). Zachary is also enjoying his own room these days as we had our dining room converted into den, so that we could turn our downstairs office into Nathan’s bedroom – a complicated way of saying that he does not bunk in with Zachary anymore. His new location is more convenient for him, the family, and the nurses who constantly carry him up and down the stairs. It also allows for storage of his many pieces of “big” equipment without consuming our entire family room. We are now in the process of redecorating his room with a jungle theme (out with the Sports memorabilia) and we will soon have a new medical bed for him to complete the comfort/convenience makeover. We are quite happy to be done with 2 months of intrusions of contractors, painters, etc. in our home. The new office/den is still a work in progress, but it has already provided a quality meeting getaway for Tricia to take her many teleconferences at home.

Now on to the serious stuff. Nathan’s seizures continue despite the ketogenic diet and new meds. Somehow, despite everything we do, they seem to get a magnitude worse each month or so. The mornings have gotten so bad that we have had to stop physical therapy, music therapy, and child development in the mornings. Luckily we have been able to reschedule some of these to afternoon appointments when he is not having as many seizures. He had his repeat eye surgery (for the blocked tear ducts). We are unsure of its success. We thought it worked after the 1st week, but during the 2nd week, his eyes got really bad again. Now they are back to being somewhat better. We see the ophthalmologist next week for the official test. The next procedure, if required, involves putting tubes into his tear ducts to help the drainage. We don’t want to go there, but alas... The worst news of all right now is that due to his vomiting and ketogenic diet, he has continued to lose weight. We are now at a crossroads for changing the type of feeding tube he has. The new type of tube puts the food directly into the small intestine versus the stomach (called a J-tube). There are so many serious “cons” of doing this, but none of them are as bad as him not receiving the necessary nutrition. We decided to wean him off of one of the seizure meds which we believe has contributed to his vomiting before doing this procedure. This has successfully stopped about 75% of the vomiting, but has not helped us put weight back on him. We are going to give it a few more weeks to see if we can make a change. It will be very difficult for him to go through pneumonia season without proper nutrition and some fat stores.

Despite the low points, we do think the change in meds and ketogenic diet have improved his overall alertness and strength. We have not seen a major change yet, but enough to feel optimistic that he might get some of the pre-seizure “Nathan” back.

We hope this update finds all of you healthy and well. Thanks as always for your support, thoughts, and prayers.

Love, The McCues (Jim, Tricia, Madison, Nathan, and Zachary)

A day In The Life - August

Jim and I both felt like writing updates this month, so please read below for Jim’s version of our summer and my version of life.

Where do I start? It’s easy to gloss over the feelings of the moment when we summarize our days, nights, weeks, etc. But in reality every day seems to throw a seemingly impossible mental or physical challenge our way. Here are the things I thought about and did yesterday. Just a typical day. This is very long… SORRY!

I wake up and watch Nathan have his morning seizures. His seizures (paired with his constant vomiting) still suck. We read and hear about all these different treatments, but with Nathan they have either been tried or seem too far fetched. I’ve been reading about stem cell treatments in places outside the US. Not only are they hundreds of thousands of dollars, but do they work? Could they work? And if they do work, for how long? Do they work to improve his seizures, regenerate parts of his missing brain, improve his eyesight, enable him to walk or talk, fix his GI system? I can find a success story for each scenario, but not one for all of Nathan’s challenges. Do we choose to pursue something like this and sacrifice the money and the time with our other children, our jobs? I’m obsessed with his seizures. I think if we could control them, he would start progressing on his development. Maybe yes and maybe no, but he can’t do anything when he is seizing all day. I know each one is a set-back. There are days that he still has hundreds, but we don’t see them all. How do you handle hundreds of brain set-backs daily?

I think about our friends and acquaintances that have children with other life threatening diseases who pursue any and every treatment constantly in pursuit of a cure. There is a direction, a vision, a purpose to every move they make. We read their blogs and cheer them on for their race for a cure, a better life for their child. I often wonder what the race is for Nathan, there is no prescribed roadmap or known possibility for a cure.

At 9am, I take Nathan to physical therapy where I engage in conversation with other families that have been relentlessly advocating to get their kids into the best school and best programs for their childrens’ physical and cognitive development. In case you are not aware, kids with special needs get to enter the public school system at age 3. As a matter of fact, you don’t really have a choice if you want to continue any early intervention services for your child. So, when Nathan turns 3 in six months, we must be prepared for all of the things we need to ask for, all of the services and educational/therapeutic opportunities that he needs. You may think that is 6 months away, but it takes that long to do anything in our wonderful (sarcasm) system. I’m already behind. These families also talk about taking their kids all over the world for hyperbaric oxygen treatments, intense therasuit therapies, and many others. Again, do they work? For some, yes. And you never know until you try. Should we be doing this? Are we giving him the best chance? Again, what race should we be running?

Nathan needs a medical bed, ramps to get into and out of our house so that we don’t end up with carpal tunnel popping wheelies into the house. I know there is other equipment, but I just haven't had the time to research or start the paperwork/prescription process and the clock is ticking.

Nathan’s eye surgery (for blocked tear ducts) did not work. We must repeat the surgery before pneumonia season starts again. The lady that does the surgery scheduling does not return my phone calls. We don’t have that much time.

At 11am, we see the dietician who tells us that Nathan has lost another pound. Not good news for him, but she is at least happy he did not lose more with all the vomiting. She tells us that he is 5 lbs shy of his recommended weight. I think – I’m glad he does not weigh 5lbs more than he does (as long as he stays healthy).

Nathan’s feeding pump is malfunctioning. Which means I must call Apria again. And they are really miserable to work with!

The receptionist at the endocrinology office berated me for being 2 months late on Nathan’s blood panel (to do a precautionary check for pituitary gland deficiencies). Not only that, but the office refused to cooperate with the neurology office who needs some of the same blood work done. So, after spending 2-3 hours trying to combine the tests, I gave in and decided to subject Nathan to giving twice as much blood just to make it work. The lab has their policies and procedures also. They decided poor little Nathan would have to come back for a 2nd time because they could not draw that much blood from him at one time. Why does Nathan have to suffer because the system is ineffective and each doctor really only cares about their piece of Nathan’s body?

The documents for Nathans’ services renewal were due. Of course, the mail must have lost them (because no one at the Government office could have made a mistake). If we don’t go down to the state welfare office today to re-submit, Nathan will lose his nursing care starting August 1st. Change of plans for the afternoon.

So, when Friday night rolls around and I go to the summer concert series in the park with the kids alone (Jim was playing softball), and some uninformed / insensitive person parks their car in the handicap zone (you know, the zone with cross-hatches that says no-parking) which “saves” the room for a wheelchair ramp, I decide to lose it. This means that I cannot get Nathan back into the van without pulling out into the street (which I do). Later, our friend, Avis, leaves a message on our answering machine that said, “we tracked down security and they gave that car a ticket”. I felt vindicated for one moment - it made me smile. KARMA! I hope it was not anyone reading our blog.

If you get this far, thanks for reading and thinking of Nathan and our family. You are all his cheerleaders on his race for quality of life and for that we thank you.

Summer Update

Summer has been hot in Sacramento, but full of travel and fun. We started the month with a relatively quiet 4th of July celebration at our friends, the Diffleys. Kids enjoyed water play while the adults enjoyed some BBQ, beer, and fireworks. Nathan and his buddy, Ian, were too sleepy to catch the pyrotechnics, but Madison soaked up all of the colorful and noisy show from a comfortable seat on the sidewalk.

The weekend after the Fourth, we made the trek down to San Diego with the Hockaday family. It was a lengthy van ride, but we somehow endured the hours and Zachary’s displeasure with being strapped into a car seat while we passed interesting sites such as the side of Interstate 5 and East Los Angeles. 10 hours after beginning our journey, we arrived at our condo on Mission Bay near Pacific Beach. The weather was perfect for most of the trip after a brief time with gray skies – low- to mid-80s and sunshine. Aside from enjoying the bay and the beach, we hit Sea World, Lego Land, and the World Famous San Diego Zoo (just a big zoo like most others, but it does have some Pandas). Everyone had a great time and Nathan and Zachary got their first dips in the Pacific Ocean. We were afraid that the cold ocean water would not be a favorite of Nathan’s, but he put up with Jim dipping his lower half into the waves on Mission Beach and in the bay. Zachary conquered the condo’s two stairs after a couple of days and was a challenge to corral in the condo and on the beach. The amusement parks were great fun for all of the kids and a nice return to childhood for the parents (although there was no such thing as Lego Land in the 70s or 80s when we were kids).

Just prior to our trip, we started Nathan on the ketogenic diet to take a shot at controlling his seizures some. The routine continues to change as the neurologist and nutritionist try to tweak the diet to find Nathan’s ketonic “sweet spot” for optimum seizure control. The tweaks continue and the ups and downs of seizure control can be very frustrating. Nathan also has had some bouts with vomiting (whether it is a virus or a reaction to the diet and other supplements is still a mystery) so our day-to-day stability remains constant chaos. But he keeps battling on and we hope to gain the upper hand on the seizure control at some point to give our little guy a break from all of his “activity.”

Madison has enjoyed more fun and travel than the rest of the family as she also took a trip to Disneyland with Uncle John, Aunt Kelley, and cousin Jennifer. They stayed at the Paradise Pier Hotel and hit Disneyland and California Adventure for three long days (Uncle John said that one day they were inside the Disneyland Park from 7:30 AM – 10 PM). Major props to John and Kelley for taking the girls and surviving with two 6-year-olds at the Happiest Place on Earth. Madison’s Sea World, Lego Land, SD Zoo, Disneyland, California Adventure funfest in a 3-week span rivals the amusement park travel many of us got in 3 years as kids. Who says today’s kids are spoiled?

To top it off, Madison will be going with Tricia and Zachary to Indiana at the start of August to wrap up the Summer travel agenda. The trio will spend time with Grandma and Granddad Axsom and Aunt Gloria and Uncle Kevin in the Hoosier State and Tricia will also attend her 20-year HS Reunion while she is back home. While the rest of the family is away, Jim and Nathan will be living the bachelor life back in Folsom. If you happen to participate in any poker game, BBQ, or swimming at the McCue home while Tricia is away, please keep it to yourself as Jim is attempting to make missing a trip to Indiana look like a sacrifice to redeem for later use (“I’m going to need only an hour or so for THIS fantasy football draft, honey. It really shouldn’t take that long.”).

Once the gang returns from Indiana, Madison starts up in the first grade at her new school (while Tricia gets to return to work). It seems like just yesterday we were trying to get words out of Madison and now she offers up plenty to point out anything and everything. Zach may not have a chance to get a word in with big sister around. Z-Mac has moved from cruising to walking in the last week. He usually gets about 3-6 steps before going down, so it is just a matter of time that he is running all over the house.

As Summer winds down, we will likely be back on watch to keep Nathan healthy (the warm weather makes things a little easier with fewer viruses that often develop into pneumonia in the colder months) and hope to get on top of the seizure control. Soon, we hope to have him moved to a bedroom downstairs – we are planning to convert the dining room into an office/den to open up our downstairs office/bedroom into Nathan’s bedroom/medical supply warehouse. Demolition is set to begin August 10, so we hope to have separate rooms for the boys in September.

We hope this update finds all of our friends healthy and well. Thanks as always for your support, thoughts, and prayers.

Love, The McCues (Jim, Tricia, Madison, Nathan, and Zachary)

June Update

Hello Friends!

These last 2 months have been fortunate in that Nathan has been healthy (and all of the kids for that matter). Of course, good health is a relative term in our household. Nathan has been free of upper respiratory infections and pneumonias for awhile. He was finally healthy enough to have his eye surgery today to unblock his tear ducts. It was a minor procedure. The only scary part was the anesthesia, but he came through like a champ (despite the 10 pokes for an IV). The doctor said this procedure is 90% successful, so we are hoping that Nathan will catch a break and be in the majority percentile for once. His blocked tear ducts have caused him numerous eye infections since birth and constant tearing, so we hope this will be a relief to him.

Now, on to the bad news. We have two pieces of bad news. The first – Nathan’s nurse & godsend, Sandy, fell 4 weeks ago and broke her ankle pretty severely. She underwent surgery last week and is still waiting to find out her recovery eta. We are assuming she will be out thru the summer, but you never know. She does come to visit occasionally which really perks up Nathan. She visited last week, and when I asked how she arrived, she said she drove herself. For those of you that know Sandy - picture this: Her broken, swollen, partially casted right foot was propped up on the console of her Lexus. The left foot maneuvered the pedals. All I can say is if you live between El Dorado Hills and Folsom, please watch out. Oh, and did I mention she broke a toe on her left foot while hobbling around? Besides an entertaining story, the impact of Sandy’s fall has left us with a daunting schedule. The first week, we had very limited help with our Friday nurse filling in where possible. Since then, it has been “nurse du jour”. Although we have liked all of them, except one, it has made life very hectic for us. Not only do the nurses need training every day, but they also want to chat and learn about Nathan and our family. Sounds sweet and endearing, right? I know this must sound ungrateful, but I have no more time to make “new friends” on a daily basis. I need “help” with no small talk. And I would prefer not to have to teach another nurse how to use a feeding tube / pump (each nurse requires training on this 3 times during an 8 hour shift). Don’t they teach this in nursing school? Most of the nurses have previously worked in hospitals. Don’t they teach this in a hospital? This should be one of the mandatory job qualifications. Unfortunately, we can’t live without the help and still juggle our jobs/other kids, so we take what we can get. It is better than nothing. And, the nurses really have been endearing.

Onto the 2nd bit of bad news. Nathan’s seizures have worsened. Just when you think it cannot get any worse, it does. He has multiple types of seizures daily. Hundreds of times each day. For the last few weeks, I have watched and held him while he has seized almost every minute for hours. How can this be? Why has it gotten so bad? We have so many questions that no one will ever be able to answer, although the neurologist explained that the seizures create pathways which enable more seizures. Nathan is missing his corpus callosum (the part of the brain that connects the right and left hemispheres), so it was quite a surprise when the neurologist suggested a corpus colostomy to remove this part of the brain. Apparently, pathways have developed between the hemispheres – enough to cause full brain seizures but not enough to give him the cognitive development we so desperately wish for him. Nathan is a trooper, but this is really taking a toll on him. He started a diet called the “ketogenic diet” last week which we hope will improve the seizures. It is a high fat, very low carb diet. It is also a very precise diet such that we have to measure the formula powder on a special scale to the prescribed # of grams. He cannot take many of the medications we give him including Tylenol, or any liquids since they are all sugar based. Our pharmacy is researching carb contents of all of his regular meds to find the right substitute. The goal of this diet is to have him in a state of ketosis. Doctors don’t really know why, but it has proven results of improving seizures in kids like Nathan. If you want to know more about it, feel free to google it – lots of info on the web. We are slowly transitioning Nathan to be sure his GI system can handle it so it will probably be another week before we know if this will give any improvement. We’ve been told of many success stories, but just like everything right now – we no longer want to hear about the statistics or the miracle success stories. As crazy as it sounds, the more success stories we hear, the more unattainable they seem for us. We just want to write Nathan’s success story. The neurologist has also mentioned procedures and medications that are in clinical trials now that may someday be able to help Nathan’s seizures. For now, we just hope that this diet gives him some relief.

For the fun stuff, Aunt Gloria & Uncle Kevin spent a week with us last month. As always, we had a great time with them. During their visit, we celebrated Madison’s kindergarten graduation. We are going to San Diego in 2 weeks for our first family vacation in a long time. We plan to go to the zoo, Lego Land, Sea World, etc.. Aside from some of the challenges (pushing a wheelchair thru sand and entertaining a baby on a 10+ hour car trip?), we are really looking forward to it. In August, I will be taking Madison and Zachary to Indiana for my 20 year high school reunion (where does the time go???). And in between, Madison will be going to Disneyland with Uncle John & Aunt Kelley. And then school will start up again. Whew!

Sorry no pictures this time. We have not gotten a chance to download any of our pics. Stay tuned…